Reason....

Hollowness reach more deeper in myself...
Every single event that I ve encountered create more madness...more anger...
Brain.....Heart.....Spirit....turning into something that I don't recognize.....
Even I'm the one who have those things..
It just like a meadow which turning into a blight...
It slowly drained...till dying...
Without any cure and treatment...it sure will be fall...

Now...I ve trying to cure it by myself...
Is not that I didn't need anyone help...
It just I ve grow tired to be like this...
I grow tired to have a faith...a hope....waiting for someone else to notice this hollowness...
I need to be recovered...

Then..I do what I can Do...
For myself...and for every beloved one...
Especially for her.....Meta Kurnianingtyas...