Hope

What is it….Roxas…Star….It is going to shine…???

The lost of myself..lost of my faith..lost of my heart..it pretend me to became nobody..

Person without existence..person who don’t have any feelings..

Is this what I want to became..??is this what I desire for myself..??

Obvius isn’t…I even don’t know bout myself…thus I feel that I can’t catch with the sky anymore…

If I’m an angel..then my wings already tear apart..shattered till it completely broken…

I ve fallen from the light…fall to darkest place..where no one can reach it…

Even for the sea..the person who I love the most…

When the night is come…the star can’t shine anymore…losing it’s particle for giving it’s light…

Then where the star could retrieve his lost light…?.where the start could search for it…?

Sea abandoned the star…is it true..?or the star abandoned the sea..?

It’s truly complicated..don’t know what’s going on…don’t know what will happen next…

Reality…Fact…Destiny…it is going to be sad story..with sad ending..??

What is this anger..hatred..dissapointed..it is going to devour myself..My heart..??

I ve lost control my act..my brain..it’s really almost lost..

What I know just sad and more sad…lone and more lone…

So where is the joy..where is the spirit…where is the goodness..???

Past…when I see through to past…there is the joy..there is the spirit…there is the goodness…

But in past…there is some part that missing..part that most important…

Then I’m starting to search it…searching everywhere…step by step…

Dream within Dream…sad melody..lone themes..that is myself..yeah my destined self…

Then so be it…I ve tired..so tired from this journey…

Thus I ve thinking to get a rest…lay myself…watch the sky for a while…thinking bout the sea…

And then……………

I wouldn’t mind for closing my eyes n put myself into a deep sleep…and perhaps….

Perhaps that I would find what I search for in my dream……

With the last heart that I ve had…

Roxas….